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Oh God I hate myself

First piece of fanfiction I ever post on livejournal and it's this crap.

Well. Here it is. Ishi/Kon.

I kill myself sometimes. Here we go.

Fandom: Bleach
Pairing: Ishida Uryuu/Kon
Word length: 367 words.
Rating: PG-13, perhaps.
Warnings: Ishida/Kon. He's a plushie.

Sometimes, Kon would get ripped, in pursuit of Ichigo or that Goddess Orihime, or trying to run from screams of "Postafu!". Life as an animate stuffed toy was dangerous, perilous. When he'd get ripped, sometimes his stuffing would fall out. He'd be lying on the side of the road, stuffing falling out of a large cut in his side, and unable to move, when pale yet strong hands pick him up of the pavement and carry him inside.

This had happened more then once, Ishida's rescuing of him. Ishida would then put his stuffing back in, piece by piece, until he was full again. He'd get a large shiny needle, and some thread, and sew him back together, stitch by stitch. His hands were nimble and quick, like the rest of him. Warm too, despite their cold appearance; just like the rest of him. Ishida made him feel precious, like something to be protected; him, a mere stuffed lion with a soul.

Sometimes, Kon wonders what it would be like to have a human body of his own. Would his heart beat quicker when Ishida is near? That's what he's heard happens when you're around someone you like. If he had a human body, and wasn't a stuffed lion, would Ishida look at him differently, or the same? Would he still be something to be protected, so be fixed? When Kon becomes human (if Kon becomes human), he thinks maybe he'd like to pick up Ishida's body off the pavement for once. He'd like to replace that stuffing, piece by piece. He'd like to sew up Ishida's rips, stitch by stitch. He'd like to kiss those cold lips with lips of his own, made of flesh, not fabric. He'd like to run his hands down that lithe body with fingers, not paws, and touch his skin with skin of his own, not fur.

Maybe one day it'll happen, but for now Kon is content with being picked up off the pavement when he gets ripped, and being fixed, because he knows that when that happens he sees through his eye beads a part of Ishida no one else does; he sees Uryuu.

Yeah. Sorry. I'm really sorry. I just needed Ishida/Kon in the world.


( 15 comments — Leave a comment )
Jun. 19th, 2009 04:56 pm (UTC)
That was beautiful! You really got across Kon's desire to be human, a part of his character that's been shoved onto the back burner since his introduction. D:
Jun. 19th, 2009 11:52 pm (UTC)
God, thank you. I was expecting no one to even look at this thing. Kon's desire to be human was something I've always thought the manga and fanworks neglected, so I did try to put that in there. Oh my gosh, thank you again for your praise and for reading this thing.
Jun. 19th, 2009 04:59 pm (UTC)
ZOMG!!! so much cute.
Jun. 19th, 2009 11:54 pm (UTC)
Thank you :)
Jun. 19th, 2009 07:24 pm (UTC)
Great story -- short but sweet. I love the idea of Kon wanting to pick Ishida up when he's down and fix him. Wonderful insight there.
Jun. 19th, 2009 11:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you muchly. I totally wasn't expecting any sort of response, and I'm- I think 'chuffed' is probably the word. Thank you again for reading this and commenting.
Jun. 19th, 2009 08:23 pm (UTC)
Aww, that is so so sweet. I have a secret love for this pairing :)
Jun. 19th, 2009 11:54 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I just had the idea last night of Ishida/Kon, and suddenly I couldn't get it out of my mind, hence the hastily written fic. Yes, Ishi/Kon forever!
Jun. 19th, 2009 09:16 pm (UTC)
You hae absolutely NO reason to be sorry ! This is very sweet, and well-written, and you have converted me to this sweet pairing ! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Thank you !! n________n *melted* *adds to memories*
Jun. 20th, 2009 12:03 am (UTC)
Thank you! I just couldn't get Ishi/Kon out of my head. Writing this fic converted me to Ishi/Kon as well, so I think I may have to get a fanbase for it started up. I need moar. Thank me? I'm thanking you! For reading it and commenting. Thanks again.
Jun. 20th, 2009 12:16 am (UTC)
I love Kon. He needs more appreciation/attention. I often feel like he gets overlooked because his character in the anime is so goofy after his initial appearance. Yours is the first fic I've ever read with Kon in it. XD Thanks for writing this, and I don't find it to be crap-like at all.
Jun. 20th, 2009 12:33 am (UTC)
I thought this was adorable and very insightful. I ended up feeling kind of sorry for Kon, yet happy that there's someone there who's looking out for him. Now I think I would like to see more of this pairing, as well. : )
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Jun. 20th, 2009 04:01 am (UTC)
this is so cute and sweet never thoug like that of kon... and makes me remember a certain djs
Jun. 21st, 2009 12:50 am (UTC)
Awwwwww~ that was so mushy and sweet! And poor Kon yearning to be human (does it seem weird that I thought of 'The Little Mermaid' and the whole 'part of your world' scene?)
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